some things you (the reader) may not know about me (the writer)

my favorite necklace= an owl pendant attached to a long silver chain. the owl's belly is also a clock.

i sometimes wish i lived in the 80's. not because of the crazy fashion and music, but because people wouldn't be so addicted to technology. even when we get internet @ home again, it will never be my life. nor will acquiring the latest small gadgets. my phone allows me to call/text people and take pictures. thats all i need. and i was annoyed when they came out with blu-ray. just more money to spend on replacing the dvd's you bought to replace your vhs'. (and speaking of vhs- i still have mine.)

i really enjoy the concept of flying. for instance- this year, my christmas tree will have both bird & butterfly ornaments.

i really don't mind eating by myself in a public place. it's obviously not my first choice, but i've done it millions of times.

i hate using public restrooms. not because of the usual dirtyness, but because i have a complex with other people hearing me go. if my wedding day ever comes, i won't have a personal assistant to do the lifting of the dress. i'll probably just hold it all day. but i am starting to get over it the older i get. (related antecdote: when i was a kid and we went shopping out of town, my mom would always make my sister & i pee before we went to all the stores. which wasn't a bad idea, considering she was toting around kids for several hours. but this was a big deal for me. it usually ended up with her waiting 30 mintues while i tried with no avail. and then us getting in an argument about it.)

shoes i wish i would've gotten a 2nd pair of: my tan, suede leather loafer-moccasins. i've almost worn them out and they go with me everywhere, every season.

i don't understand people who don't like Panera. its like my favorite non-fast food, fast food place. it's always yummy and its quality food. their breakfast egg souffles are to die for. in fact, i wish i had one right now!

i don't really believe in astrology, but i have to say, i am a pretty stereotypical gemini. always contradicting myself, i live in two worlds. for example, one part of me wants to be wealthy and go shopping every weekend. the other part of me wants to sell all my belongings and move to a third world country. so finding balance, and appearing balanced is a big deal to me.

addendum to the last statement: i also have struggled since i was a small girl, between being utterly unique and fitting in all at the same time. it's probably my biggest complex- to appear different and yet relatable. which is probably why i was always "that wierd girl with the cute top".

miracle whip or mayonaise? definately mayo.

coke or pepsi? definately pepsi. but i don't hate coke, either.

some of my favorite things to eat together:
-cottage cheese & cashews
-ruffled chips and party dip
-wheat thins & red pepper hummus
-triscuits & laughing cow cheese
-popcorn with m&ms
-tuna with hardboiled egg & cucumbers (its better than it sounds!)

the song "bullfrogs & butterflies" has been in my head for a week now. i don't know why.

i embarrassingly tend to go for things that are less challeging and/or time consuming, because then i can easily succeed. (e.g.- i may buy a magazine instead of a book even though i love reading, or i may apply for jobs that i'm overqualified for because then i can be the best employee) it's a sad truth i had to admit to myself.

favorite vegetable- its a tie between red pepper and spinach. so i usually end up combining the two.

favorite type of ice cream- honestly? get me an original chocolate frosty from Wendy's and i'm good to go. i don't really need all the add ins. if i want a candy bar, i'll go buy a candy bar.

my latest purchase(not including food): a red Swingline staper online. $15 with shipping & handling. long story short- i needed a good stapler, and couldn't resist being Milton. (from Office Space)

i like animals more than people. its really true. when i'm watching a movie and an animal dies, there's 100% chance i'll be depressed for days. when a person dies, its about 50/50 that i'll even cry. but don't worrry, as far as movies go i'd still rather watch one with an all person cast. i'm not huge on the whole "animals talking" thing.

i love organzing & redecorating.

most people complain about mondays when working a full time job monday-friday. i'm here to say monday's are not evil. its really thursdays that are satan's spawn. it's the day of the week when i'm ready for the weekend, but its not here yet, and neither is payday. thursdays are for me, the jinx day, where everything goes wrong. i don't even know how it started, but i really feel like thursdays are cursed sometimes.

sometimes, randomly, i make up songs. words and music. but i rarely write them down. and sometimes, i choreograph dances in my head. it's true.

right now i'm: writing this blog post at work. intermittently working and eating my breakfast which today consists of animal crackers and no sugar added, strawberry flavored applesauce. apparently i'm 5 years old.

some things i've re-learned about myself

i will never stop developing crushes, no matter how old i get, or how serious of a romantic relationship i'm already in. and thats okay.

it doesn't matter where i work at any point in my life. it will never change who i am. it may temporarily change my eating habits, optimism levels, and the amount of pain i'm in, but @ the end of the day i will still be this empathetic, compassionate person who deeply cares for other people.

lean cuisine meals are actually good sometimes. and mt dew will always be there for me.

i still hate cold and hope to live in a warmer climate someday.

the thought of moving will always be a bittersweet concept to me. (and truth be told, i will miss it just being me & the boy this next year)

money doesn't buy happiness. but it sure does point you in that direction ;)

and sometimes there's nothing better than eating Jimmy Johns and watching the Simpsons with my boyfriend. its the little things, you know?

its been a week or so

the 5 things i miss the most about being unemployed so far:

1) the ability to take a nap whenever i want, but not needing to take a nap because i was getting enough sleep at night

2)always having a clean house, and eating healthier on a regular basis. (now its back to, "hmmm...what can i put in the oven that will take no longer than 20 minutes because i only have 4 hours before i have to go to bed & my time is too precious to make a good meal?)

3) no office politics, driving in rush hour traffic, or walking around in the cold

4) not worrying about having to make new friends when they usually only last as long as the job does

5) no morning sickness (no i'm not pregnant- but this is what i refer to my morning allergies, nasuea, backaches, & stress induced heartburn as that normally don't occur when i'm happy & not working somewhere i don't really want to work at)

if only i would've gotten that chiropractor's assistant job....sigh.....at least i'll have money around christmas time.

just some tidbits

i am officially a working woman as of tomorrow. so i thought i'd take some time to go to the library once more this week & check my email before things get super hectic in my life. i wasn't planning on blogging, but again, i thought i'd do it before i feel like i don't have time to do it with moving and everything else. but i'm timing myself, cause i know i can be a bit windy; i will only take 5 more minutes to write now that my time is precious again and i still have to go get some groceries afterwards. so here goes :

*as previously mentioned, tomorrow i start my new job. its downtown, which means a nasty commute facing into the sun both ways and dealing with the horrible rush hour traffic. (its really better to go west in the morning and east in the evening.) so i keep reminding myself how much i'll be making - though only temporarily so - and that makes me feel a little bit better about the job itself. keep an open mind sarah, keep an open mind. it probably won't be horrible.

*yay for daylight savings time. even though i think this is the stupidest thing ever, i can't say i really hate "falling back." especially when i'll have to get used to a new sleep schedule.

*i really hope that after this election they won't change the whole gay marriage in iowa thing. you made it legal iowa. so for those of you politicians that oppose the idea try to sit on your thumbs because its time to get over it. i know too many people who are in same sex relationships, or are of the homo/bi-sexual nature to not let this bother me. really. who are they hurting? and thats just the tip of the iceburg for me....

but its officially been 5 minutes. so now i will sit on my thumbs for awhile and hope that this week only brings good things.

jesse + moving = a good time

i love my boyfriend. but my boyfriend doesn't know how to pack. he also doesn't see the importance of packing until the night before (something i grew out of after college), or the importance of cleaning.....ever.

so in my last few days as an unemployed woman with abundant free time i "offered" (aka demanded) that he let me help him. so after four years of living together, forbidden to touch his sacred (aka dirty, unorganized) shelf, i finally got my hands on it. talk about yet another way for a girl such as myself to get off. i dusted, i categorized, i threw away-with permission- those things that i didn't understand why he was keeping. shelf after shelf i made things better and then finally made my way to the bottom shelf where the mystery box was sitting. this mystery box had been plaguing me for the last 4 years...what was i about to find?

after dismissing the pile of junk on top of the box, and dusting what had been sitting there, stirring up my allergies for the past forever, i opened this box first to find multi-colored christmas lights. and they worked!! this made me happy, realizing that after we move in to our new apartment it will then be time to decorate for christmas! and now that we will have a stairwell, what better place to put the pretty lights? but my giddyness wouldn't last long, for in the same box that held the glorious lights were old packs of gum, 10 batteries strewn about not labeled good or bad, old papers, his graduation cap, many other miscellaneous items, and, last but not least: 4 old mouse traps. and at least one had been previously used with its tell tale stains in about the right area the rat's head would have been smashed.

disgusting right? these are some of the many things that were put in the garbage last week after my thorough....i want to say...."investigation"? i think i washed my hands raw and went through about an entire box of tissues after this excavation of dust and crap. and to be completely honest- it was so much fun!

not only did we find old memorabilia of his, and some old notes from me here and and the playwright to Monty Python's "Spamalot" there, we also found an old Cristmas card from Jesse's little sister Rebecca that was entitled, "The Store of Christmise." it was awesome. i read the "christmise store" outloud phonetcially and by the end we were laughing so hard we were crying.

and on top of that, my favorite thing about the physical process of moving so far? the fact that jesse has enough stuffed animals to fit into a 3x3x3 foot box. yep- its true ;)

some thoughts i've been thinking lately

if you're supposed to be quiet in the library, how is it everytime i'm there, that there is a very loud crying child? its annoying.


i think top hats should come back in style...but this time for women. i would totally rock the top hat.


do some people dress (white people-lets be clear) like 3rd world refugees on purpose when they go to wal-mart? i mean really. you can afford to buy $200 worth of crap, but you can't afford shampoo or a trip to the laundromat?


thats all.

yuckiness

this week has left much to be desired. first of all, i didn't get the job. long story short, my potential employer didn't end up hiring anyone. she realized as she's just starting her own business that she really can't afford help at this time. to make things even better and worse at the same time, she said i was an "amazing young woman" and would "keep my resume on file" as to "hire me when the time was right". so all in all i wasn't necessarily rejected, but still. i can't seem to win. so back to being a temp i go since no one else will even give me an interview.

also i seem to have contracted a cold this week. which i'm afraid is turning into the flu as when i decided to get some fresh air and do some errands today, i was sweating. in October. with the a/c on in my car. yeah....fever much?

so i'm sick, i still have no employment, and yet, life is still good. why? because of this.

http://www.facebook.com/#!/photo.php?pid=2893237&fbid=119149606773&op=4&o=global&view=global&subj=110801322&id=507436773


this picture designates my true joy in life, and the final page of my recently finished scrapbook. my most favorite people are here in this picture, this memory. and in my opinion, knowing that kind of happiness exists, is all i need right now to get me through the yuckiness