movies i want to own:
(some not out yet)
1) Up!
2) The Count of Monte Cristo
3) City of Ember
4) The "Underworld" trilogy
5)I Love You Man
6)Julie & Julia
7)The Beach
8)Say Anything
9)Confessions of a Shopaholic
10) Chocolat
favorite movies:
(other than those above)
1)Ever After
2)Finding Neverland
3)Legends of the Fall
4)The Curious Case of Benjamin Button
5)Lord of the Rings (including the whole trilogy)
6)Cider House Rules
7)Love Actually
8)Across the Universe
9)The Golden Compass
10)Catch and Release
favorite tv shows:
(this is why TV on DVD can be dangerous)
1)Friends
2)Sex and the City
3)Psych
4)Arrested Development
5)What Not to Wear
6)Ruby
7)Its Always Sunny in Philidelphia
8)Clean House
9)How its Made
10)What I Like About You
favorite actors/actresses:
(not including anyone on "Friends")
1)Zoe Deschanel
2)Brad Pitt
3)Leonardo Dicaprio
4)Morgan Freeman
5)Jim Carey
6)Johnny Depp
7)Nicole Kidman
8)Jennifer Garner
9)Gwyneth Paltrow
10)the 2 Kates- Hudson & Winslet
favorite childhood tv shows/movies:
1)Beauty and the Beast
2)Cinderella
3)The Wizard of Oz
4)Full House
5)Boy Meets World
6)Fresh Prince
7)Rigoletto
8)Reading Rainbow
9)Sesame Street
10)The Buttercream Gang
favorite books:
(also while growing up)
1)The Velveteen Rabbit
2)Bridge to Terebithia
3)The Giving Tree
4)The Miraculous Journey of Edward Tulane
5)The Last Silk Dress
6)Sweet Valley Twins & Sweet Valley High
7)The Babysitter's Club books
8)Land of Hope
9)Berestein Bear books
10)Arthur books
favorite bands/musicians:
(note 9 and 10 couldn't be more different genres ;)
1)Imogen Heap
2)Regina Spektor
3)Guster
4)Death Cab for Cutie
5)Alanis Morrisette
6)Coldplay
7)Adele
8)Jack Johnson
9)Seether
10)Enya
favorite places to shop:
1)Old Navy
2)Oldnavy.com
3)Target
4)Gap
5)DSW
6)Pier One
7)World Market
8)Maurices
9)Barnes & Noble/Borders
10)Hy-Vee ;)
favorite restaurants in Des Moines/best place to get... :
(note...#10 is no longer available...so added 1 more)
1)Spaghetti works/...cheap pasta
2)Qudoba/...burritos & lime tortilla chips
3)Noodle Zoo/...salad to die for
4)Cheesecake Factory/....a delicious variety of entrees/desserts
5)Jimmy Johns/...subs via delivery
6)Northern Lights/...orgasmic breadsticks
7)Jason's Deli/...cheap organic lunch
8)Champs/...hamburgers
9)Tasty tacos/...unorthodox tacos with fry bread tortillas
10)Cheddars/...onion rings
11)IHOP/almost anything, especially omletes and pancakes (also has some sentimental value)
favorite smells:
1)freshly cut grass
2)chlorine
3)lilacs
4)laundry fresh out of the dryer
5)Jesse's cologne
6)new plastic
7)old books
8)campfires
9)chocolate cake
10)the chapstick i used to wear in college
and these are just a few of my favorite things...in general and random order:
*the color-coordinated polka dots on the back of granola bar wrappers
*lightning bugs
*my purple blanket
*playing tennis
*when my magazine arrives every month
*pens & stationery
*bubble gum
*animals
*riding in airplanes (usually the destination helps a bit too)
*sitting on my floor and daydreaming
*eating cashews and cottage cheese
*turning my stereo up really loud and dancing in my room
*looking at pictures/being nostalgic
*being barefoot
*infomercials
*cutips
*being in a foreign country
*dresses
*playing super nintendo
*brown paper packages tied up with strings...
...and these are just a few of my favorite things.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
tribute
here's to the man i love: i'm so lucky to have a guy,
- who doesn't just drop his brother off @ the airport, but waits until its time to board before leaving
- who gets excited whenever i cook something- anything, but never expects me to
- who kisses me before leaving for work everymorning, even if i'm somewhat unconscious
- who takes out the trash and changes the light bulbs
- who still, after all this time, wants to hold my hand, play with my hair, or just put his hand on my thigh while driving or watching a movie together
- who cuts up raw chicken when i can't handle it
- who lets me pick the restaurant
- who wants me to hang out with my friends, and isn't clingy or controlling
- who bails me out if i can't afford rent this month
- who visits my family with me, despite the infamous and never ending drama
- who always makes me laugh, no matter how shitty of a day I've (or we've) had
- who never wants me go to bed sad
- who is silly and makes inside jokes with me
- who takes me to movies (even some he doesn't always want to see)
- who likes to travel, and plan trips, even if they might not happen until we're retired
- who teases me and makes me the center of his universe
- who knows all the things i hate about my self and disagrees
- who makes breakfast for his siblings
- who doesn't judge me for taking naps or drinking pop
- who likes having pet fish
- who despite all his talk, is good with animals and children
- who's whole face lights up any time he tells a story or memory
- who owns Amelie and Moulin Rouge
- who plays tennis with me when no one else can
- who has a rubber ducky collection
- who always likes my hair, and compliments me unexpectedly on days when i feel fat
- who is smart, witty, and intelligent
and,
who knows me better than anyone else, and still loves me. here's to Jesse, the man who will always have my heart.
- who doesn't just drop his brother off @ the airport, but waits until its time to board before leaving
- who gets excited whenever i cook something- anything, but never expects me to
- who kisses me before leaving for work everymorning, even if i'm somewhat unconscious
- who takes out the trash and changes the light bulbs
- who still, after all this time, wants to hold my hand, play with my hair, or just put his hand on my thigh while driving or watching a movie together
- who cuts up raw chicken when i can't handle it
- who lets me pick the restaurant
- who wants me to hang out with my friends, and isn't clingy or controlling
- who bails me out if i can't afford rent this month
- who visits my family with me, despite the infamous and never ending drama
- who always makes me laugh, no matter how shitty of a day I've (or we've) had
- who never wants me go to bed sad
- who is silly and makes inside jokes with me
- who takes me to movies (even some he doesn't always want to see)
- who likes to travel, and plan trips, even if they might not happen until we're retired
- who teases me and makes me the center of his universe
- who knows all the things i hate about my self and disagrees
- who makes breakfast for his siblings
- who doesn't judge me for taking naps or drinking pop
- who likes having pet fish
- who despite all his talk, is good with animals and children
- who's whole face lights up any time he tells a story or memory
- who owns Amelie and Moulin Rouge
- who plays tennis with me when no one else can
- who has a rubber ducky collection
- who always likes my hair, and compliments me unexpectedly on days when i feel fat
- who is smart, witty, and intelligent
and,
who knows me better than anyone else, and still loves me. here's to Jesse, the man who will always have my heart.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
being april
Easter and Spring are upon us- tomorrow is Good Friday of which of course i don't get off. why in the world would my job actually let us have a day off?
anyway, starting tomorrow AFTER work- i have to:
-take cans/bottles back to hy-vee and buy ingredients to..
-make a birthday cake for my sister/dad
-clean my apt
-go with jesse to pick his brother up from the airport
-have supper/socialize with said brother
-get up early the next morning to go see jesse's dad and siblings for a day at his house
-leave that evening to go stay the night with my sister (& her husband) @ their house
-wake up early again and go to church
-on the way from church in creston to my parent's house in corning, stop by lenox to see jesse's mom and siblings at her house
-go have Easter dinner at my parents house
-take jesse's brother back to the airport
-go home, take a nap or a pill of some sort
(aka- not have sex)
and hopefully it will be good, but definately too short and fast. i will be visiting 4 peoples' houses in less than 2 days. and because of this, the benefits of families living close together are starting to seem like cons, as we have no excuses to skip out on any of them. and its the 2nd of 3 weekends i will be spending some sort of time with my family.
and on top of all that knowed stress and potential drama, i have to remember what Easter means to me. and wish i could be churching @ Walnut Hills- to see the only pastor i've had and actually respect, give one of his last sermons this year.
anyway, starting tomorrow AFTER work- i have to:
-take cans/bottles back to hy-vee and buy ingredients to..
-make a birthday cake for my sister/dad
-clean my apt
-go with jesse to pick his brother up from the airport
-have supper/socialize with said brother
-get up early the next morning to go see jesse's dad and siblings for a day at his house
-leave that evening to go stay the night with my sister (& her husband) @ their house
-wake up early again and go to church
-on the way from church in creston to my parent's house in corning, stop by lenox to see jesse's mom and siblings at her house
-go have Easter dinner at my parents house
-take jesse's brother back to the airport
-go home, take a nap or a pill of some sort
(aka- not have sex)
and hopefully it will be good, but definately too short and fast. i will be visiting 4 peoples' houses in less than 2 days. and because of this, the benefits of families living close together are starting to seem like cons, as we have no excuses to skip out on any of them. and its the 2nd of 3 weekends i will be spending some sort of time with my family.
and on top of all that knowed stress and potential drama, i have to remember what Easter means to me. and wish i could be churching @ Walnut Hills- to see the only pastor i've had and actually respect, give one of his last sermons this year.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
upon return of seeing "How to Train Your Dragon"...
...i must admit i was more affected by this 3d Dreamworks film than i thought, and came acrost a favorite quote in an old notebook. i had given this quote to a young girl i worked with at Orchard Place, who loved dragons. it seems i now understand it fully; to think an animated movie and some warm weather would have helped me yet again realize that,
"I was born to catch dragons in their den,
and pick flowers,
To tell tales and laugh away the morning
To drift and dream like a lazy stream
And walk barefoot across sunshine days."
-James Kavanaugh
"I was born to catch dragons in their den,
and pick flowers,
To tell tales and laugh away the morning
To drift and dream like a lazy stream
And walk barefoot across sunshine days."
-James Kavanaugh
Saturday, March 20, 2010
catch 26
jesse left me alone with his computer for the afternoon, which was very nice. we have separate computers, but mine has problems, or one might say "computer cancer", and i have been in the process of cleaning it out for quite awhile now. hopefully in a year or two i will be able to get a new one since sharing is so hard to do sometimes.
anyway, i decided i needed an afternoon just to myself to use the computer to job hunt, etc. but of course, all i've really accomplished so far is balancing my checkbook, checking my email, and updating my blog.
one of the emails i got was a facebook notification that i had received a message from an old college friend. i read on and apparently it was a mass message sent to tell us about a side business this person had started. she was advertising her own website, and is currently using her writing and photography skills to make and sell creative gifts & projects.
thus the pity party begins. here i am, 26 years old, and have no clue what to do with my life, mostly because i have no financial stability to go out on a limb and try to figure it out. here she is, restoring old photos and making crafts to sell, and here i am, sitting in a cubicle, day in and day out, just trying to make ends meet. and i have been for as long as i can remember.
i'll admit most of this is feeling sorry for myself, but also, literally paying for my past mistakes. i've been in a debt management program for over a year now and its literally sucking the life out of me. any fun i might have, i feel completely guilty about because i feel like i shouldn't be spending money. but at the sometime, i don't want to just "get by", i don't want to be depressed and miserable and just sit at home like a lump.
after all, i go shopping a lot less than i used to on a regular basis, and only when i have extra money to do so with, (e.g. christmas, birthday, income taxes, etc.) i haven't paid to get my hair cut since last july. i never get manicures, or tans, or other unnecessary expenditures, and i haven't eaten out for lunch during the work week for 3 months. i even stopped buying popcorn at the movies, which for me, is a huge sacrifice.
i have made changes in my lifestyle, and even though i like things, i don't spend extravagently. the catch 22 here is, that i am the wisest i've ever been in my life when it comes to budgeting, but i'm suffering the most because i can't just run to grab my credit cards anymore to bail me out. i can only spend what i have. and its good, but it totally sucks.
and even though i have been able to see the tangible difference it has made, the fact that i've only held temporary jobs in the past 3 years and that i've been let go twice in the past 2, has seriously hurt me.
one of the things that bothers me the most is that i'm cutting corners around things that matter- like grocery shopping. yes, there are healthy choices one can make on a budget, but really, it all boils down to the fact that i have to use lots of coupons, buy what's on sale/what i can afford, this week or that.
so why am i spilling the secrets of my life on a blog post? because its all i can think about- 24/7.
i was recently at someone's apt. with a small gathering of people, and was chatting with someone i hadn't seen in awhile. there was the ususal small talk, and i of course, talked about my current job. the fact that i sit in a tiny cubicle with a headset and on the phones all day long. her curt yet polite response, was that she could never work a job where she would have to sit in a cubicle.
and i wasn't offended, but it still hurt. because i used to have the exact same response. back when i was in college, and apparently had the world of opportunities at my doorstep, i never saw myself doing what i'm doing now.
but since the end is not yet in sight, it has to somehow justify the means.
and i know that someday, hopefully soon, and hopefully before i'm 30, i will be out of this mess. and hopefully someday I will be sending a mass email to my friends, telling them about my new business, along with the link to my website. i really, really hope so.
as for now, i'll just keep looking for other jobs and praying i can keep my sanity until someday comes...
anyway, i decided i needed an afternoon just to myself to use the computer to job hunt, etc. but of course, all i've really accomplished so far is balancing my checkbook, checking my email, and updating my blog.
one of the emails i got was a facebook notification that i had received a message from an old college friend. i read on and apparently it was a mass message sent to tell us about a side business this person had started. she was advertising her own website, and is currently using her writing and photography skills to make and sell creative gifts & projects.
thus the pity party begins. here i am, 26 years old, and have no clue what to do with my life, mostly because i have no financial stability to go out on a limb and try to figure it out. here she is, restoring old photos and making crafts to sell, and here i am, sitting in a cubicle, day in and day out, just trying to make ends meet. and i have been for as long as i can remember.
i'll admit most of this is feeling sorry for myself, but also, literally paying for my past mistakes. i've been in a debt management program for over a year now and its literally sucking the life out of me. any fun i might have, i feel completely guilty about because i feel like i shouldn't be spending money. but at the sometime, i don't want to just "get by", i don't want to be depressed and miserable and just sit at home like a lump.
after all, i go shopping a lot less than i used to on a regular basis, and only when i have extra money to do so with, (e.g. christmas, birthday, income taxes, etc.) i haven't paid to get my hair cut since last july. i never get manicures, or tans, or other unnecessary expenditures, and i haven't eaten out for lunch during the work week for 3 months. i even stopped buying popcorn at the movies, which for me, is a huge sacrifice.
i have made changes in my lifestyle, and even though i like things, i don't spend extravagently. the catch 22 here is, that i am the wisest i've ever been in my life when it comes to budgeting, but i'm suffering the most because i can't just run to grab my credit cards anymore to bail me out. i can only spend what i have. and its good, but it totally sucks.
and even though i have been able to see the tangible difference it has made, the fact that i've only held temporary jobs in the past 3 years and that i've been let go twice in the past 2, has seriously hurt me.
one of the things that bothers me the most is that i'm cutting corners around things that matter- like grocery shopping. yes, there are healthy choices one can make on a budget, but really, it all boils down to the fact that i have to use lots of coupons, buy what's on sale/what i can afford, this week or that.
so why am i spilling the secrets of my life on a blog post? because its all i can think about- 24/7.
i was recently at someone's apt. with a small gathering of people, and was chatting with someone i hadn't seen in awhile. there was the ususal small talk, and i of course, talked about my current job. the fact that i sit in a tiny cubicle with a headset and on the phones all day long. her curt yet polite response, was that she could never work a job where she would have to sit in a cubicle.
and i wasn't offended, but it still hurt. because i used to have the exact same response. back when i was in college, and apparently had the world of opportunities at my doorstep, i never saw myself doing what i'm doing now.
but since the end is not yet in sight, it has to somehow justify the means.
and i know that someday, hopefully soon, and hopefully before i'm 30, i will be out of this mess. and hopefully someday I will be sending a mass email to my friends, telling them about my new business, along with the link to my website. i really, really hope so.
as for now, i'll just keep looking for other jobs and praying i can keep my sanity until someday comes...
Sunday, March 14, 2010
there's no place like home
if "home is where the heart is", to add another cliche phrase to the post, then i have to say i felt very at home this weekend.
no more flooding since last time, and i got to see one of my very best friends this weekend that i haven't seen for four months. which doesn't seem like a huge amount of time, but it really is when we used to live in the same city as each other and now are states apart.
it felt so genuinely good and almost relieving to have her in my life again, if only for a couple days. we ate good food, we caught up on life, we went shopping, we took naps on the couch while watching the science channel, we drank too much wine, we sang along to Beauty and the Beast on VHS, we went to church after losing an hour of sleep, we hugged, we said goodbye once again.
and we were friends- in person. and it was so nice. and i feel very grateful.
no more flooding since last time, and i got to see one of my very best friends this weekend that i haven't seen for four months. which doesn't seem like a huge amount of time, but it really is when we used to live in the same city as each other and now are states apart.
it felt so genuinely good and almost relieving to have her in my life again, if only for a couple days. we ate good food, we caught up on life, we went shopping, we took naps on the couch while watching the science channel, we drank too much wine, we sang along to Beauty and the Beast on VHS, we went to church after losing an hour of sleep, we hugged, we said goodbye once again.
and we were friends- in person. and it was so nice. and i feel very grateful.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
lyrics of the moment
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
"Breathe Me" by Sia.
(Very pretty and emotional song, have been listening on repeat all night. I would recommend youtubing it, was going to post a video, but there are so many to choose from...)
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
"Breathe Me" by Sia.
(Very pretty and emotional song, have been listening on repeat all night. I would recommend youtubing it, was going to post a video, but there are so many to choose from...)
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