words from Alanis to me, to you, beloved friends

One day I'll find relief
I'll be arrived
And I'll be a friend to my friends who know how to be friends

One day I'll be at peace
I'll be enlightened
and I'll be married with children and maybe adopt

One day I will be healed
I will gather my wounds forge the end of tragic comedy

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

One day my mind will retreat
And I'll know God
And I'll be constantly one with her night dusk and day
One day I'll be secure
Like the women I see on their thirtieth anniversaries


I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

Ever unfolding

Ever expanding

Ever adventurous

And torturous

And never done


One day I will speak freely
I'll be less afraid
And measured outside of my poems and lyrics and art
One day I will be faith-filled
I'll be trusting and spacious, authentic and grounded and home

I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time of being forever incomplete

brrr

it's getting colder and the days are getting shorter. oh how i dread the coming of winter. but the past few days i've realized there are some really good things about the colder seasons. this past summer i wrote about my favorite things about spring & summer. and now i suppose it's time to be optimistic and do the same about fall & winter :)

here's my top ten:

1) drinking hot tea and cocoa

2) breaking out all of my sweaters & long sleeved tees

3) early evening naps

4) the changing of leaves

5) lots of holidays & time spent with loved ones

6) (and speaking of holidays...) lots of yummy, homemade food and treats

7) the first snowfall

8) trees glistening like chandeliers after an ice storm

9) more book reading and other indoor activities

10) wrapping presents! i bought my first Christmas present last weekend with a dear friend :)

sushi breakthrough

so, i've never been a big fan of sushi...until today that is! a few weeks ago a "sample man" @ hy-vee was giving samples of edamame and california rolls. i gladly accepted the warm salty soy beans but was hesitant to try the "deli" sushi. but much to my suprise it was SO tasty!

and then, today, i had a strange craving and decided to go to hy-vee and get those yummy california rolls (& a couple crab rangoons of course, so as not to be too healthy) and my lunch was less than $8. Total. Can you believe that? $6 for a 12 pack of california rolls...and they tasted better than any i had tried at the two fancy sushi restaurants i've been to. and i only ate 6 rolls, so it was like 2 meals for the price of one.

granted i'm no conisseur, but all that mattered to me was that my lunch was fresh, satisfied my hunger and yet was still nutritional, and didn't burn a hole in my wallet all at the same time. it was a total breakthrough for me.

lazy weekend

i could polish my toes or tweeze my eyebrows, but all i want to do today is nothing.

i could go through my mail and pay some bills, but all i want to do today is nothing.

i could sweep the kitchen floor or do my laundry, but all i want to do today is nothing.

i could go to the library and check out a new book; i could finish reading the current book i've started. but all i want to do today is, well, nothing.

i could go to the gym and sweat for an hour. i could walk or bike on the trail by my house. but, excercise, really? no thanks. today = nothing.

i could've made something beatiful, or tried a new recipie, but all i've done today is absolutely nothing.

i could still post some pictures on facebook, or call up a friend. but alas, i want to do nothing.

i could put on something other than pajamas, but that means i would be doing something.

i could write on my blog about my thoughts on this or that, but then i would be thinking about something.

rather, i'd just as soon do nothing. :)